Glimses Of My Life..

My 'Real' Holiday

2009-07-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

Although I had the june holidays, I wouldn't really call it a holiday. Hahaha, anyways, I think my real holiday would be when I had like 1 week 'holiday' after my exams. Went to places like the War memorial, sungei buloh, asian civilization museum and many others. Found out that my ancestors fought and died during the war..makes me feel...more appreciative and patriotic I guess. He died for the future generation to live a happy life..and a happy life I will strive for. Especially when I found out that there were men that died when they were my age. I just stared at their names and couldn't help wondering, could they say they had a fullfilling life, even if they died at the age of 20? I salute to all who died during the war. Went to Kusu Island too..I LOVE THE SERENITY! So unlike the Singapore mainland.

The week made me...feel. Not that I had no feelings before or anything..but made me feel appreciative that I could actually feel emotions. My grandaunt died. She believe in me and my dreams. And I won't let her down. Not when I'm so close.

oo ya, RIP Michael Jackson. Grew up listening to his songs. Can't believe he's gone now. Whatever he did, I will only allow myself to appreciate the good deeds that he made, and of course, his very meaningful and also catchy songs. Heal the world..starting with the man in the mirror..Cause I know God will be there.

Peace

randoms

2009-06-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

Your Taste in Music Says You're Wild

Your musical tastes are intense and rebellious.

You are intelligent... but in a very unconventional way.

You are curious about the world. You love doing something new.

In fact, you enjoy taking risks and doing things most people would shy away from.

You are very physical. It's likely that you're athletic, but not into team sports.

You have the soul of an artist. Beauty and harmony are important to you.

What Does Your Taste in Music Say About You?

You Are Apple Red

You're never one to take life too seriously, and because of it, you're a ton of fun.

And although you have a great sense of humor, you are never superficial.

Deep and caring, you do like to get to the core of people - to understand them well.

However, any probing you do is light hearted and fun, sometimes causing people to misjudge you.

What Color Red Are You?

Your Flip Flops Say You're Philosophical

You are an outdoorsy person. You feel most comfortable in nature.

Beautiful scenery and good weather always brighten up your day.

Being outside allows you to feel calm and connected to the world.

Problems don't seem so big when you realize how small you are in the scheme of things.

Your ideal warm weather place: Costa Rica

The Flip Flop Test

I'm literally feeling sick rite now...can't think much on what to write...miss Cambodia and the kids there...God help me.

Peace Out

A new discovery

2009-04-09T07:15:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'll start with 'bad news' 1st. Well, SA1 was crash and burn. Passed only 2 subjects. Biology and econs. Yes, yes, gotta study..please bug me to study if you see me. !P

On another note, I enjoyed going to marina barrage with my class on wednesday. Although I'm not quite sure what I've learnt exactly about the barrage itsef, but I did learn one or two things about my class. I've forgotten on how much I've learn to love them. We went crazy with taking pictures..which i must say a good way to bond people! Who knew?! Although I must say that there can be improvements with our bonding..of which i guess starts with me ey? hahaha, and to top it off...the girls and I did brilliant with our 12 x 100m run heats..1st!!! Woohoo! Hope we'll get the gold this time!

I find that I'm addicted to blogthings. hahaha, i guess its a thrill for me to discover something new about myself everytime..and maybe whoever is reading my post will learn more about me too as I post the results:

You Are Blooming Flowers

You are an optimistic person by nature. In even the darkest times, you are hopeful about the future.

You feel truly blessed in life and can sometimes be overwhelmed with emotions.

You have an artist's eye. You are always looking for beauty in the mundane.

You have a good sense of aesthetics, especially when it comes to shapes and color.

What Part of Spring Are You?

Don't allow mayself to be distracted ey?? I guess I'll be the judge of that!

You Are Spirit

You are resilient, hopeful, and inspiring. You have a lot of emotional, physical, and mental energy.

You nurture and nourish yourself. You know that you need fulfillment and downtime if you want to be your best.

You stay present in every moment. You don't allow yourself to be distracted or flustered.

You appreciate the life you have been given. You embrace all that is beautiful in the world.

Are You Mind, Body, or Spirit?

ok...this is very suprising to me..haha, i wonder how accurate these things are..ability to inflict A LOT of harm..hmm..one word..scary.

You Are a Cougar

You have more strength than most people, and with it, the ability to inflict a lot of harm.

Your power gives you confidence, and you find leading others to be easy.

You believe that you need to the best, and you are very driven to excel.

Most people immediately admire you, but some people feel very envious of your abilities.

What Big Cat Are You?

You Are a Chimera

You are very outgoing and well connected to many people.

Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others.

You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others.

You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

ok...like WOW for this one:

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about...

One that looks good in the morning - without a stitch of makeup

That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though

You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

Haha, kelly clarkson? Who knew?!

Your Inner Pop Princess Is Kelly Clarkson

"Grew up in a small town

And when the rain would fall down

I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be"

No doubt about it, you have star quality. Might just take a while to get there.

Who's Your Inner Pop Princess?

Wow..i don't need them to tell me this do I?!

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself.

You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

Do You Look Your Age?

Hahaha, ok ok, I'm stopping already! LOL!
Hope you guys have a great life out there!

Peace!

I'm the heart?! Wow, i'm honoured!

2009-03-31T00:05:00.000-07:00

You Are The Heart

You are very industrious. Working hard makes you feel good.

You are powerful and strong. Some people may think you're fragile, but you're not in the least.

You are steady and reliable. You keep going no matter what.

However, you do tend to react to situations. Stress makes you speed up.

What Internal Organ Are You?

Hahaha, ok den. Aboout results for SA1. So far? Failed Chem and Math with a U grade. Only gotten half of my econs paper: 10/20. The rest will have to wait till Friday then..especially Biology. The truth is, I didn't really expect anything, since I didn't even study for any of the paper till the very last minute.and last minute I mean ONE day before each paper..except math. I spend like 3 days doing vectors and I have yet to see the results. Despite so, it gets me though..knowing that I couldn't pass without studying = shows how much I know w/o studying or revising currently. Can someone please bug me to study!!! Hahaha, I know..this is no laughing matter!

Adilin and Arif (hockey) is in my class now. Kinda weird really..never thought they would re-take. And to think that me and Adi started with the same 1st 3 mth PAE class and now ending it in the same class again! Haha!

Ooo wells, seems like I won't be able to update my posts as often as I should with all the happenings in school. Nontheless, to whoever is reading this post, I quote
A7X: SEIZE THE DAY OR DIE REGRETTING THE TIME YOU LOST.

Do I know it! Trying hard to recover it back now, as quoted form Jaime Cullum: OH GOD! CAN WE GET BACK WHAT WE HAVE LOST?!?!?!

Hahah, Peace!

OPEN MY EYES

2009-03-06T00:29:00.000-08:00

Well, today is a big day for many..the day A level's results are out. It really opened my eyes that I sooo have to start working hard from now..really have to break the habit of slacking..

Anyways, updates: went out with Fiza during Valentines' and chill out at the beach. Had ODAC orientation camp last week..wasn't that bad. Haha, although I admit that I slack a lot. Will update pictures when I can find the time. Haha!

Congrats to my friends who did well for their A's! And for those who didn't, well, things happen for a reason. There is never "THE END" as life is a circle, an ending marks a beginning..so don't give up! :)

Leaving you guys with lyrics from matchbox twenty:

HOW FAR WE'VE COME

Hello
Hello
Hello

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world,
But its feeling just like every other morning before,
Now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,
The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that
And I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

[Chorus:]
But i believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well i guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
Oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but i don't really know
Then i can't remember caring for an hour or so
Started crying and i couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street and took a look at myself
Said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well i guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
Oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

Its gone gone baby its all gone
There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
It was cool cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you
Well its gone gone baby its all gone
There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
Well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you

But i believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well i guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
Oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come [X9)

Peace out! :)

DEDICATIONS....Happy Birthday Sab! :)

2009-01-23T21:36:00.000-08:00

Well, had a superduper-fantasic-crazy girl's day out yesterday to celebrate Sab's birthday( which is today..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABBY!). Went to karaoke at bedok, despite knwoing the fact that I'm still recovering from flu and cough and sore throat! Thank god it was better yesterday..the flu was gone anyways. Hahaha, sab's expression was priceless, haha, had to lie saying I came late..when the real fact was that I was wayyy early to help set up the lovely banners that kamilah drew ( she had great skills I tell you!) and even had time to sing some songs before she came! Hehe, the cake taste very nice despite the fact that I was unhappy at first!P SORRY GUYS! !P GREAT CHOICE! We sang our hearts out, especially for bon jovi songs, abba (like dancing queen) and some malay songs like isabella!(..esp IT'S MY LIFE by bon jovi..screamed our lungs out!) Thank god I still have my voice! I have to admit, I wasn't what you call a good friend for the past few years, kinda fade away from them..and feeling sorry about it now..kinda true on what they say: You'll never know what you have until it it gone. Thank god it's not Gone for me! Sorry for not being there girls! LOVE YA LOTS!

And yes, for today's blog entry, I'm going to write all about friend appreciation. I admit, I did not put in a great job in this department for the past years, and so I'm learning....

THANK YOU TO:

1) HAFIZAH JUFRI AND FAEZAH ABDUL AZIZ: For always being there for me. You welcome me to your humble abode(house) with arms wide open and may probably be the few to know who I really am. You saw me cry and supported me when I was sad, protesting to a certain extent when I was in that condition, saying that this was not the real cheerful and crazy me. I'm deeply sorry for making you see the other side of me, especially so when it worries you. Nontheless, thank you for sharing part of your private life with me and thank you for the crazy and beautiful memories shared all these years. :)

2) SHAIKHA HARON, KAMILAH, SABIRAH: For being the few best crazy girlfriends ever. You never failed to notice what I really wanted as birthday gifts ( of which I utilize the most of till today!) and kept me in touch with my inner child, which is wonderful. The only thing I might regret not doing is spending more time to get closer to you, and so, I will attempt to do so for this coming years, if you allow me to.

2) HIDAYAH(TPJC AND YJC): For keeping me company, entertaining my obvious non-important blabbers and being excited about it. !P Thank you for being resonable with me, for putting aside time to spend it with me and for trying to understand me. (maybe its easier for hid YJC as we have a lot of things in common! I bet she would be wondering.."y is she writing all this?" !P)

3) DUNMAN HANGOUT BUDDYS (FADILAH MAHYUDDIN, MASITA, SHIFFA..TO NAME A FEW): For the great hangout activities and crazy 'discussions' we had. Although I have to admit that it gets harder to get everyone together for gatherings nowadays, I appreciate the fact that we still try to put aside time to keep in touch with one another. Hope that the crazy idea of overseas 'outing' can be put into actions soon!

4) BANDMATES: For the crazy jamming sessions we had. Although we might not be able to carry them out again or soon, I'll cherish the moments that we share for the love of music.

5) OCIP TEAM: For the crazy and warm-hearted memories shared. The trip to Cambodia made me realize that crazy, partying people still have hearts to help the poor. Hope that we'll do another trip there soon!

6) EVERYONE ELSE: Although your name might not be mentioned here, you guys are still valued by me. Thank you for acknowledging me as a friend and the memories created.

Ok, since I do not want to bore you with more dedications, I THANK YOU FOR READING MY BLOG. Maybe you know me upclose and personal, maybe you don't. But to think that you are even reading my blog is interesting as it shows that you do care about the lives of others and might have that little bit of good in you..and so I thank you.

Peace Out! :)

New Year

2009-01-13T20:10:00.000-08:00

hello! Well, updates: Did work after Cambodia trip as a Sales Person. Was good except for certain unwanted events that happened, but that's that. Got to know that the first week of School got exams..right after I signed up for my job! So...kinda not suprised if my results turns ugly, especially since my last day of work was on Sunday and the starting of topical tests on Monday. HAH!

Have yet to get my driving lisence. Planning to get it at my own expense by the end of the year after A's. And yea...still trying to wake up to the fact that this is an important year. Congrats to Zul whom I just found out got a freaking Class 3 lisence!! Hahaha, sorry ah brother, apparently you were right, you are going to get that lisence first! !P

Starting to listen to rock and metal again thanks to Gabriel who added me on friendster and his profile songs..and explains my pressured mind too! !P I still think old school-kinda songs for rock and metal songs sounds good, but the new ones are starting to be good too. Haiz..missing the fun of jamming and rocking out.

Not feeling so well for the past few days...my brain feels like its frying and fever and flu and god-knows what's next. Missing sporting activities as well...missing quite a lot of things actually..swimming, tennis, kayaking, rock-climbing, cycling..etc.

Wondering if I should join the 'balik kampong' activity that my friend told me about...gardening and all..would be something like Cambodia I guess..maybe next week..this week's really hectic..just found out that I have to submit a 14 - page long math questions assignment..and I'm having Biology topical test on friday. Great.

Well, to my dear friends who actually bothered to read my blog, thanks and do keep in touch!

Leaving you guys with lyrics from Skid Row ( thanks to gab's profile! !P)
Youth Gonne Wild - Skid Row

Whoa yeah

Since I was born they couldn't hold me down
Another misfit kid, another burned-out town

I never played by the rules and I never really cared
My nasty reputation takes me everywhere

I look and see it's not only me
So many others have stood where I stand
We are the young so raise your hands

They call us problem child
We spend our lives on trial
We walk an endless mile
We are the youth gone wild
We stand and we won't fall
We're one and one for all
The writing's on the wall
We are the youth gone wild

Boss screamin' in my ear about who I'm supposed to be
Get a 3-piece Wall Street smash and then you'll look just like me

I said "Hey man, there's something that you oughta know.
I tell ya Park Avenue leads to Skid Row."

Well I look and see it's not only me
We're standin' tall ain't never a doubt
We are the young, so shout it out

They call us problem child
We spend our lives on trial
We walk an endless mile
We are the youth gone wild
We stand and we won't fall
We're one and one for all
The writing's on the wall
We are the youth gone wild

Well let me hear you wail

They call us problems child
We spend our lives on trial
We walk an endless mile
(We are the youth gone wild)
We stand and we won't fall
We're one and one for all
The writing's on the wall
(We are the youth gone wild)

They call us problem child
We spend our lives on trial
We walk an endless mile
We stand and we won't fall
We're one and one for all

Whoa
We are the youth gone wild

Whoa
We are the youth gone wild

Yeah
We are the youth gone wild

Whoa
We are the youth gone wild
Gone wild

Replying to Fad's wishes !P

2008-12-08T19:37:00.000-08:00

Well, today I was supposed to play tennis with sabirah, but came late and realized that the court was used and I couldn't reach her through her hp. Hahaha, and apparently it was the case of her waking up darn late! Hahah, talk about breaking my record of being late! !P Maybe next tym.

I read Fadilah's past posts and realized that I was supposed to write something..hmm, how interesting. Hahaha, I was suppose to write 10 facts about myself..why, another game of reflections ahh?! Ok den, here it goes!

10 FACTS ABOUT ME:

1) Like fad, Im into music and the arts(anything that is considered art). But, my
art skills are not what you call 'there' yet. Haha! And by music, I'm really ok
with any genre. Now, I'm more into r&b, pop, rock.

2) I love singing too, and 4C ppl should know this cause Fad and I used to sing
like nobody's business! But, i'm cutting down on my singing cause I kinda lost
my voice and now I'm planning to be replaced by Irfaan and Hafizah for main
vocals in my band.

3) This leads to the 3rd fact about me: I love Jamming! As in rocking out, jumping
up and down following the beat and thus causing me to loose my voice when I
practically scream the lyrics out.

4) One thing people might not know is that I have a passion for dance. Ok, so I
don't really go to dance classes or have a group of people to dance with, but
I really love dancing and wish that one day I am able to go for classes. And
yes, I do dance alone in my room with the doors closed and music blasting. !P

5) I love sports ( other than volleyball, cause I have yet to adjust myself with the
pain as I hit the ball with my arms ), but don't usually practice it and play
just for fun! = I prefer doing physical activities than watching big screens when
there are people around! !P ( OO ya, I have a passion for go-karting too!)

6) I have the passion to help people out, as in provide a helping hand ( especially
to the poor ). :)

7) However, I am not what you call organized as I feel that routines kills my
freedom to live! I do agree that constant work has to be put in to achieve success
though. But who says constant work has to be a routine?! !P

8) I don't usually get angry easily, but when I do, get out of my way! Did I tell
you that I have a passion for martial arts too?? Just haven't taken up courses
yet!!

9) I am quite a religious person, but what an oxymoron when compared to my love for
rocking out?! I have to admit, I'm getting complacent in terms of religion
nowadays...

10) Basically, I have a lot more things to say, but I guess I'll end it with this:
I'm practically a person full of passion and drive for everything from food to
literature, and willing to learn anything that is new.
But what i'm trying to say is that in short, I am a person who is
happy with herself and is still exploring the concept of: ME. hahaha!

Well, I hope I have made fad happy by writing this down! !P

Ok den, so I've updated my playlist:) juz choose your type of song I guess. !P
Leaving you guys with the lyrics from robbie williams:

ROBBIE WILLIAMS - IT'S ONLY US

And they want us to grow up
We don't want to get a job
We all need a decent rock
Where it's all Kicking off

Baby it's alright Baby it's alright
You don't need to call it off
Baby it's alright Baby it's alright
It's Only Us

We just stopped for cheaper thrills
Since the price went up on pills
From Stoke-On-Trent to Beverley Hills

We know it's all Kicking off
Baby it's alright Baby it's alright
You don't need to call it off
Baby it's alright Baby it's alright
It's Only Us
It's Only Us

Baby it's alright Baby it's alright
You don't need to call it off
Baby it's alright Baby it's alright
It's Only Us
It's Only Us

PEACE OUT!

Fly time, Fly

2008-12-02T22:28:00.000-08:00

I realize how time passes by so fast as I look at this year's prom pictures..which was supposedly to be mine as well, but I guess I'll have to wait till next year. I kinda feel sad but at the same time thankful to know that I have got to know this year's graduating bunch. Ooo ya, and congrats to Hafiz the prom king! I'm still wondering if I should go to next year's prom...

Well, as I recalled about past events and etc, I realized that I was questioned the same question twice..i wonder if there will be more of these kind of question popping up. The question was " Why are you single?! " . Hahaha, kinda shocking to note that this question was asked by guys. Well, sorry to say, I can't answer that cause I have no answers really. Guess only time will tell. :)

Well, here leaving you with lyrics from Pink, and a good song I must admit!

GOD IS A DJ - PINK

[VERSE 1:]
I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high
Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes
Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore
Like Mommy I love you
Daddy I hate you
Brother I need you
Lover, hey "f*** you"
I can see everything here with my third eye
Like the blue in the sky

[CHORUS:]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

[Verse 2:]
I've been the girl- middle finger in the air
Unaffected by rumors, the truth: I don't care
So open your mouth and stick out your tongue
You might as well let go, you can't take back what you've done
So find a new lifestyle
A new reason to smile
Look for Nirvana
Under the strobe lights
Sequins and sex dreams
You whisper to me
There's no reason to cry

[CHORUS:]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

[BRIDGE:]
You take what you get and you get what you give
I say don't run from yourself, man, that's no way to live
I've got a record in my bag you should give it a spin
Lift your hands in the air so that life can begin

If God Is a DJ... If God
If God is a DJ (life is a dance floor)
Get your ass on the dance floor

[CHORUS (2X):]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

Peace out! :)

TPJC OCIP 2008

2008-11-21T01:48:00.000-08:00

The trip to Cambodia was a really meaningful one to me...although I regretted not having the time to do more. I can say I left part of my heart there. Although there were communication barriers due to language differences, I really feel as if I'm at home. In fact, I felt soo sad when I had to leave...I left with a heavy heart. The children there were great, the air was refreshing, you can feel the sun..but at the same time, you feel the cool morning breeze too! The tallest building in Siem Reap could be as tall as only around 10 stories (of which these are hotels)and most of what you see are cows and huts and trees and greenery. Rarely do you see the people there putting sour faces, getting angry or frustrated..they always smile! :)

Here are some pictures taken..

Although I'm going to miss it a lot, I can say that it will be my motivation to excel..so that I can meet them again..and hopefully by then, able to give more.

Peace out!

Suddenly I see

2008-11-06T18:32:00.000-08:00

Heeellloo! Hahaha, its been ages! Anw, the trip to Malaysia was cool, just relaxing around, went swimming uncountable times, went to their butterfly farm ( 2 butterflies wanted to follow me home!! They used my bag to hang around!P ), saw human-size toys (including captain jack sparrow!!! :) ), ate lots of bubble gum, took their bus to go around ( I am soo thankful for Singapore's efficient transport system! ), monkeys almost snatch my ice cream away while walking in their botanical gardens and went to the peneng hill ( everything looks like minatures from up there..and the air was just..WOW! ) I think I didn't miss out on anything else other than their glorious food there..haha!

Anw, I just gotten back my results, and phew! PROMOTED! Woohoo! Well, there are some of my friends who didn't make it and was forced to move out...going to be weird not seeing ainul around after like almost 6 years with her. Wish her all the best in her future school! I'm on holiday mood already...after reaching Singapore from Penang on 1st november, Im going off to Cambodia for OCIP on the 10th november! Can't wait!!!!! It will be soo awesome! Hopefully will update when I come back on the 20th. :)

So far, for now, I'm kinda slacking off...haha! Have a great life guys! You only get to live once!

Leaving you guys with a song that is echoing in my head and has kept me singing for the past few days...

SUDDENLY I SEE - KIT TURNSTALL

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on a wire

Suddenly I see

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see

:)

Peace out!

WHeeeeeee....

2008-10-06T04:28:00.000-07:00

FINALLY! THE EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! Got my results back. In short: PROMOTED! Wanna know more? Ask me. hahahaha. Well, the job I thought I would get end up nowhere. I have a feeling this year I won't be working. !P Danggg, I'm sooo in the holiday mood! And..the worse part was that I might not be able to follow my family to malaysia..(sniff)..BUT, OCIP IS HERE TO STAY WITH ME MAN! woohooo! I am sooo excited. Car wash donation soon!

Happenings? not much..I think. Hahahah, me and my world. :)

Peace out!

whhoooossh!

2008-09-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

These past weeks have been MIND-BLOWING! Preparations for exams is ermm..effort is there..so, hopefully I'll pass with flying colours!

People around me have been acting weird lately. Either I don't get what is happening around me, am oblivious to school social happenings or something like getting the ' A - levels zombie fever' .. if there ever was one in the first place! !P

Upcoming events that I am looking forward to : OCIP TRIP TO CAMBODIA IN NOV with school of course; and a trip to Malaysia late October with family! Ooo yes, finally, the opportunity that I have been long waiting for is finally here! With hard work of course! I had to produce good results to get in man! Hopefully the job I am getting soon would prove useful..

Guitar is still my 'baby' and drums are like..there but not there yet. My 'tutor' has been very busy with work and all, so..the result? One session of class so far..haha! Well, the prediction would be: gotta learn by myself !P . But that one session was good though, really useful, so hopefully I'll take off from there! :)

Well, take care! Will try to update my blog next time..!P

Leaving you with some more lyrics from Alicia Keys..I think I'm becoming more of a real music fan of hers !P Why wouldn't I? Her songs and lyrics are just great!

Alicia Keys
» Unbreakable

Clap your hands everybody
Clap your hands
Come on, keep it going
Clap your hands everybody
Clap your hands everybody
Clap your hand
Lets do it ,you ready?
Come on

We could fight like Ike and Tina
Or give back like Bill and Camille
Be rich like Oprah and Steadman
Or instead struggle like Flow and James Evans
Cuz he ain't no different from you
And she ain't no different from me
So we got to live our dreams
Like the people on TV

We gotta stay tuned
Cuz there's more to see (Unbreakable)
Through the technical difficulties (Unbreakable)
We might have to take a break
But ya'll know we'll be back next week
I'm singing this love is unbreakable
Oh yeah yeah...

Yeah, clap your hands everybody
Clap your hands everybody
Lets do it like this, come on

See, we could act out like Will and Jada(Will and Jada)
Or like Kimora and Russell makin' paper, oh yeah
All in the family like the Jacksons(like the Jacksons)
And have enough kids to make a band like Joe and Catherine, yeah

She ain't no different from me
And he ain't no different from you
So we got to live our dreams
Like the people on TV
[ Lyrics accessible from http://www.rare-lyrics.com ]

We gotta stay tuned
Cuz there's more to see (Unbreakable)
Through the technical difficulties (Unbreakable)
We might have to take a break
But ya'll know we'll be back next week
I'm singing this love is unbreakable

We're living our dreams...yeah...
We're living our dreams
We're living our dreams
We're living our dreeeeeeeeeeeeams
(ooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh)
We're living our dreams(We're living our dreams)
We're living our dreams(We're living our dreams)
We're living our dreeeeeeeeeeeeams
(oooooooohhhhhhh oohhh yeah yeah)

And we got to stay tuned
Cuz there's more to see (Unbreakable)
Through the technical difficulties (Unbreakable)
We might have to take a break
But ya'll know we'll be back next week
I'm singing this love is unbreakable
Sing it one more time now
Ya'll know we'll be breaking up
But we just might be back next week
This love is unbreakable(ha,ha,ha,yeah,yeah)
Break it down, break it down like this
Yeah...

No thing, no money, no sin, no temptation, talking 'bout nothing
No thing, no money, no sin, no temptation, talking 'bout nothing
No thing, no money, no sin, no temptation, talking 'bout nothing
No thing, no money, no sin, no temptation, talking 'bout nothing
Yeeeeeeaaaaahhh.......
(Unbreakable)
Yeah, yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah
(Unbreakable)
We just might be breaking up
But ya'll know we'll be back next week
I'm singing this love is unbreakable

Peace out!

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2008-08-08T01:58:00.000-07:00

National day celebrations in school was ok, other than the fact that I ran around the whole school for the amazing race and almost lost my voice after screaming (not singing) along with some national day songs!

Well, my cousin audrey / ogy went back to her hometown in holland already. But before that, I accompanied her going around jurong shopping. Had a great time catching up with each other. Oo ya, my another cousin got married already siaaaa...and to think she is of my age! And to think I still have a long way to even step into relationships! Haha, well, congrats to her!

Trying so hard to study right now..dunno if it is working! heh. Anyways, I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED SINGFEST! Alicia keys, jason mraz..etc..( great etcs' btw! ) aarrrgghh! Promised ogy that we'll go next year! Hopefully it's as good or better than this year!

Ok den, here leaving you with pieces of lyrics ( not a complete set but just some that really stands out from the song ) from alicia keys:

Cause a man, just ain't a man,
If he aint' man enough
To love you when you're right,
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak,
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher
When the world got you feelin low.
He's given you his last, cuz he's
thinking of you first
Given comfort when you're
thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you
really love someone
I'm telling y'all, I'm telling y'all.

Peace out!

BLOOD!

2008-07-29T18:54:00.000-07:00

Well, I decided to donated blood again last week, and not to my suprise, they rejected me AGAIN for low haemoglobin count. Well, my fault really cause I never did eat the pills they gave me. The doctor advice me to eat them and try donating again, and if I am still rejected, then I may have to see some doctor or specialist. Dang..

Anyways, starting to gear up for promos already, wow, time does fly! HAHA!

Ok then, keeping it short and simple. Till then.

Peace out!

All the way...

2008-07-24T01:34:00.000-07:00

Life has been akward to me. I'm losing some of the things that I cherish. My valuable handphone ( stated dying since songfest, new officially died = i loose contacts temporarily ), my computer ( crashed..my fault reli ) and my friendship ( fading away ... ). But in all of this, I know, as some people always say, " Things happen for a reason". And I hope for the better.

Promos are 1 month away, and I still have a lot to catch up. Got a shock after discovering how fast time went..promos again. With all that studying, feels kinda lonely sometimes, but darn, for my future and the people I owe. :) So, for now, School is my only internet source..my music all wiped out ( thank god some are in my memory cards)and i feel empty... but yet appreciative.

Well, here leaving you with the song that I keep singing to these past few days... TC and appreciate all that you have! :)

LIFE FOR RENT - DIDO
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...

Soo true.."cause nothing that I have is truely mine".

Peace Out!

dum di dum la la la

2008-07-14T05:48:00.000-07:00

Well, life's been ok. :) Still have to keep up with my studies as usual...god..promos is soo near now. Played basketball on friday..god, how long was it since the last time I played in a game..darn..my skills just went down the drain..that is if I have anty to begin with! hahah! Went cycling on sunday with my family again, a good refreshing trip..though tiring. Today I was supposed to run 2.4km but because I just had to run after the bus, then run up the bridge, then run towards the main gate just to be on time for school..heh. By then, I got this big headache and was too tired to run. So I decided to run another day..darn..hope I'm ready!

Learn how to play the drums for the first time today! Hahaha, my 'teacher' say I'm quite slow but it's ok, as long as I get it right. It feels good to put my mind into something I'm interested in! Difficult though, but that's how the way it is right? :)

Well, off to get started studying again..trying to at least. Haiz...gotta gear up! Someone help!!! !P

Peace Out!

2008-07-09T01:42:00.000-07:00

Again, I was bored..so I tried something out (yes, again!) haha! And I got these:

Your Learning Style: Idealistic and Flexible

You enjoy learning anything that can help others... from making the world more beautiful to saving lives.

You Should Study:

Architecture

Environmental Science

Fashion Design

Forestry

Interior design

International Studies

Literature

Music

Nursing

Restaurant management

Studio Art

Veterinary Medicine

What Should You Study?

Well, at least I know that I'm in the right path..a doctor man!!! Crazy? That's just me! :)

What Nadiah Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Smiles..:)

And apparently my soul changed a bit...hahah!

You Are a Warrior Soul

You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating.

You don't give up. You're committed and brave.

Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle.

Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog.

You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods.

You also value honesty and fairness a great deal.

You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding.

You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

and..What 2004 Hit Song Are You? Mine is...

100 Years by Five for Fighting

"Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to choose

Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live"

2004 was about thinking and reflecting - but isn't every year?

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Hahaha, okok, enough already! Tym to hit the books..with a drumstick! HAHAHAHA!

Peace out!

Results..

2008-07-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

My results are..not so bad. Chemistry: Sub-pass; GP : E ; Maths: D ; Biology : C ; Econs : B. No A's yet..but hopefully a whole bunch is coming soon! Hope I can get thru OCIP! * pray pray*

Made a new song on friday with Sheikha and Kamilah! Hahaha, so much about studying! 4 Days of more-or-less rest days! HAHA! Anways, was checking this out and what I got was:

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.

Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.

You cherish all of the details in life.

Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Glad I'm still me! :)

But some suprising results also popped-up when I was trying this:

Your Power Element is Metal

Your power colors: white, gold, and silver

Your energy: contracting

Your season: fall

You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn).

If you see something you want, you go for it.

You have a lot of strength, and it's difficult to get you down.

Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life.

What's Your Power Element?

Your Response is: Stay Calm

You don't have much of a fight or flight response.

In fact, you rather do neither. You don't like getting worked up.

You are able to approach most threats calmly and rationally.

You don't let your emotions get the best of you!

How Do You Respond: Fight or Flight?

Could I have probably grown up a little? hahaha, naahhh, the result still is soo me!

On the other hand, these are just so..ummm... totally new to me! HAH!

You Are 12% Weirdo

Your thinking is so in line with the mainstream, it's pretty freaky.

Have you ever considered running for political office?

You're so normal, people can't help but feel comfortable with you!

Are You A Weirdo?

And this is just wierd...knowing the fact that I don't even have any experience! LOL!

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!

Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.

If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.

You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

But one thing's for sure...

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.

And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.

You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.

With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

You Are Reggae Music

You're laid back, friendly, and even a bit of a bum at times.

For you, life is too short to spend your time angry at the world.

But while you don't take life too seriously, you're deeper than people realize.

You're very reflective, and a few key topics (like social justice and love) are very important to you.

What Kind of Music Are You?

hahaha..ok..looked like I have nothing better to do then trying out these. Feeling like a bum these past few days..HAHAH! But, it helps me remind and realize things far more than I had imagined! :)

Oo well, gotta try to study now that promos are getting sooo freaking near! And I'm still questioning on why am I still sitting in front of the freaking com?! HAHA!

TC! :)

Peace Out!

2008-07-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

Well, my grandad got admitted to the hospital on mon. Yesterday I went to visit him straight after school..came back home at 12am. Dead tired. Still am now, but it was worth it. Feel a bit guilty of not visiting him today but there is just too many things at hand.

Gotten my Biology and econs paper yesterday. Passed both of them, but I'm still quite unhappy cause I know I can do better. Well, gotta gear up now don't I ? I got 2/3 of my chem paper today, and combining both gives me a U grade. I'm waiting for my last 1/3 part cause it could determine if I pass or fail. Hope my math is a pass when I get it on friday...I depend on it to get me halfway to where I wanna be after promos are done. Cambodia!!! I wanna go OCIP!!! Build a library!!! Wohoo! Still filling up the form....:)

Feeling kinda down with my grandad, chemistry paper and 'a whole lot of things' situations today... I hope this feeling won't last the whole week. No matter how much I appreciate knowing that I actually can feel emotions..it still feels good to be happy yea? :)

Well, hope that you guys aren't feeling down. If you do..well, appreciate it i guess! Haha!

Peace out!

Adrenaline

2008-06-29T07:34:00.000-07:00

Today is..in short..moderately great! Despite the fact that I didn't do anything exciting what-so-ever.but getting to ride my dad's motorbike with him from the east to west and back again..was terrific! The wind..the open sky..and not forgetting the rain! LOVE IT ALL! That's it..I'm addicted to adrenaline! HAH! Like I didn't realize that a long time ago! Although my mom will never let me learn how to motorbike on my own..I have decided! I'm gonna collect money..and buy an open top car!!!!! HAHA! THE TYPE THAT I CAN RACE IN!!!! WOOHOOO!!! Well, in short : IT'S THE JOURNEY THAT MATTERS! LIVE TO RIDE..RIDE TO LIVE! I SALUTE YOU! :) :)

Well, other than that, I went to the east to visit my grandpa. I just love to see him smile! :) I chatted with my younger cousins and even made some beaded brooch..yea..the type that kids play with! Talk about getting the opportunity to re-live your younger days! HAHAHA..AND NO..I AM NOT OLD! ( Young at heart! :))

The weekend has been great..with class BBQ(friday) and slacking (sat) and riding (today)..yup..GREAT! Hope that I am able to continue living the journey of life brilliantly! That means: until I feel soo exhausted when I die..knowing that I have lived to the fullest! :)

Peace out!

Finally OVER...well..almost

2008-06-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

THE EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! WOOHOO! Hope I can pass :) Kinda miss my class..soo long never go for classes together..well, there's BBQ tmr! Hmm...gotta watch what I'm eating..my heart's giving me problems at certain times..oo wells. I'm still alive aren't I?

08S08 Chemistry class

Trying to find some part-time jobs..haiz..so hard finding one. Maybe I'm looking in the wrong directions...hmm..gotta try my luck. Gotta learn how to support myself with all the prices of goods going up..school stuffs..yadda yadda. Not that my parents can't support me or anything, but I just wanna be independent. Hmm..like this gotta learn how to juggle with studies...studies come first...

Well, if anything happens, it happens for a reason. But remember, IT'S YOU WHO CHOOSE WHAT HAPPENS ! :)

Peace out!

Say and do what you wanna..

2008-06-22T06:22:00.000-07:00

Tmr is tthe start od my mid-yr exams..well, not really the 1st paper, but rather the 1st after a month of june holidays! And what am I doing? Hmmm..I really have to depend on the power of luck...

Haha, life gets into a routine again after school is reopening..haiz...I hate routines..feels like some robot or something. Better break myself from daily routines man. Sometimes I feel that I don't have much time left to live ( dunno why ) and thus I have to do something with my life before I die or something. And routines may be as close to death! Ok..here I go crapping about again..I wonder when is the next sing-along session with Sabirah, Shaikha and Kamilah..must learn some new guitar chords by then !P ( aarrgggghhh...what am I doing?! )

Ok, leave me with my confuse state..haha, here leaving you with some lyrics from another good song :)

SAY- Jason Mraz

Take out all your wasted honour

Every little past frustration

Take all of your so called problems

Better put them in quotations

Say what you need to say ( x4 )

Walking like a one man army

Fighting with the shadows in your head

Living on the same old moment

Knowing you'll be better off instead if you could only

Say what you need to say ( x 4 )

Have no fear for givin in

Have no fear for givin all of it

You better know that in the end

Its better you say too much

Than never to say what you need to say again

Say what you need to say ( x 4 )

Even if your hands are shaking

And your faith is breaking

Even as the eyes are closing

Do it with a heart wide open

Peace out!

Suprise Suprise

2008-06-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

Well, on last Saturday, I went for a meeting, until Shiffa msg me saying that there is this Ex-dunmanites' gathering with teachers coming by. So, I thought, well, why not? Only to be suprised that it mostly includes the Secondary 5 people..like WOW. Hahaha, kinda weird but I'm happy able to accompany Shiffa and all.

On Sunday, went to Grandpa's house. God, seeing how old he is turning makes me reflect on my life more...like..in a blink of an eye, I'm turning 20 next year! That's like a big number man! Anyways, had fun learning new things from my cousins, we even tried to create a song before my parents dragged me home! And to think that I was unwilling to come along at first! So much about studying!

Hahaha, about that ( studying )..despite me planing and planing on what to study on specific days...I end up studying only a little. I'm praying hard to get a pass for my Mid-years looking at the little effort I put. Oh wells.

BUT, my holidays can be considered balanced..haha, or I try to believe it is so! Kept in touch with friends and families, played tennis, went swimming, attended a camp ( trekking, kayaking, climb and climb ) get stuck at home watching movies..eat and eat..play guitar and more guitar..oh yea..and a bit of studying. :)

Haha..today I was thinking of doing something productive like studying some more ( like woahhh) BUT..I end up watching more movies at home !P Hopefully tmr won't be as bad when I'm at Faezah's house:)

Well, here leaving you with a song that have me singing to. I guess the music got me and the lyrics' just awesome and filled with pure honesty :)

Your love is a lie - Simple Plan

I fall asleep by the telephone (telephone)
It's two o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been? (where have you been?)
I found a note with another name (another name)
You blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same
'Cause I can feel that you're gone (feel that you're gone)

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

(Chorus)
You can tell me that there's nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that your home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie (lie, lie, lie)
It's nothing but a lie (lie, lie, lie)

You look so innocent (innocent)
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah, you know what I mean... (know what I mean)
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you?
And do you think about me when he touches you
Could you be more obscene? (more obscene)

So don't try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late
It's too late

(Chorus)
You can tell me that there's nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie (lie, lie, lie)
It's nothing but a lie (lie, lie, lie)
You're nothing but a lie

You can tell me that there's nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know

Your love is just a lie
I know
You're nothing but a lie (lie, lie, lie)
You're nothing but a lie (lie, lie, lie)
Your love is just a lie (lie)

Peace Out !

Just Fine :)

2008-06-13T01:12:00.000-07:00

Well, today we didn't play tennis :( Haha, Sabirah was lazy to play and I had my right knee injured ( God knows how that happened! ). Plan to play on coming wednesday instead. Today was more of slow and steady day. Morning had a casual talk with my mom while eating breakfast, then went to school library to study with Sabirah..I did my work really slowly..and it scares me! Hahaha..I'm still at my chill mode when Mid-Yrs are coming pretty soon! I don't know how the rest of my day will go today. Maybe I'll go to the beach or something..God knows how much I love the beach! But with my workload..I doubt.

Tmr I'll have to go to nlb area for a meeting...hopefully tmr won't be soo dull! Hahahaha..life just seem to be..slack. For me that is! I rarely even touch my baby guitar..like got no mood. I'm in the ' laying down in a hammock at the beach ' kinda mood..Oo well, must try to make my life more exciting right?! Especially since my brothers are not at home! Laos and camp..What a life!

I think I'm addicted to marshmellows :)

Here is another one of 'songs humming in my head ' :)

JUST FINE - MARY J. BLIGE

You know I love music
And every time I hear something hot
It makes me wanna move
It makes me wanna have fun
But it's something about this joint right here
This joint right here
Its makes me wanna…..Woooh

Let it go……
Cant let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, going do what you want to do
Cant let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause Im winning
Its been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When Im walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Aint worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I’m not complaining
And I’m a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I’m so glad I got mine
So I like what I see when I’m looking at me

When I’m walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I’m a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldnt change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine
[these lyrics are found on http://www.songlyrics.com]

I aint gona’let nothing get in my way
(I ain't gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I aint gona’ let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say

Feels so good, when you're doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Its a really good thing to say
That I wont change my life, my life’s just fine

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

So I like what I see when Im looking at me
When Im walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Aint worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Peace out!

Play, play, play

2008-06-12T00:53:00.000-07:00

Wow! It's been a long time since I've post something! Haha! Anyways, ODAC LTC was ok. My group was good, being hyper and complaining at the same time! But suprisingly, I didn't feel as tired as I was last time..maybe it's because I've gone through it already, not forgetting that I actually got sick during the camp! HAH!

I've been swimming with faezah for the past few days after the ODAC camp, studying with her after that ( that is more catching up than studying la! ) The memory is still vivid in my head when we went to sunplaza park to study..the first thing that we did when we reach there was to..RUN TO THE SWINGS!!!! Haha, talk about deprived childhood! Played the swing until we got dizzy, since we just finished eating at LS! If you are asking whether I've covered anything for MID-YR the days before today..well, I read! Don't know if it goes in my head yet.. HAHA -_- BUT, I started revizing today..hope it will be fruitful..don't know why but I just can't seem to study during the days before, like my life should not be wasted on studying only! HAHAHA..and look where I end up now! BUT, I swear I will buck up starting today!

Well, today I played tennis with Sabirah! Woohoo! Planning to play with her tmr again! :)AND..I hope jamming plans will happen soon! Hahaha..it's been like what, a year since TD played as a band! My fault really! Hahaha..

Well, hope that life will be more kind to me for this year and next year! Leaving you with a song that has kept me singing non-stop in my head eversince I first heard it!

"Pocketful Of Sunshine" - Natasha Beddingfield

[Interlude]
I got a pocket,
got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love that knows that it's all mine
oh.oh,oh
Do what you want,
but you never gonna break me,
sticks and stone are never gonna shake me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

[Interlude]

I got pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love that knows that it's all mine
oh,oh,oh

Wish that you could,
but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]

[Hook]
There's a place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And darkness is light
And nobody cries
there's only butterflies

[Chorus 2x]

[Chorus & Interlude]

The sun's on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

The sun's on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

TC aite?! Peace out!

Tuning the soul

2008-05-13T00:42:00.000-07:00

Today I wonder about a lot of things. About whether if I live long enough to make my parents happy, if I could truely achieve my dreams, if I will one day meet the one, live happily and die peacefully after all is done. I realize one thing while wondering about all of these, on how reality could hit you hard, knowing that things may never go your way. Mark my words, may and not will.

I realize that as years go by, people do change, including me. No matter how hard I will try to be the same-old-same-old, there will always be something new about me which I will discover along my path of life. If you would have realize by now, most of my post consist of nothing but a reflection of my life. In short, you can never know my real self just by reading my posts. I guess this is just a simple way for me to look back and see how far I've come and what have changed. Another thing for you to realize now is how many times I've repeat the word 'realize'. Crappy, I know, but really, it means something now doesn't it?

We usually fail to realize about a lot of things in life, including the value of life itself and what consist of it, namely ourselves. My weakness is that I fail to realize that the world is ever-changing, my world is ever-changing. So, no matter how hard I hope that things won't change, you know that I'm only clinging on false hope.

However, I do realize one thing: Life is not a planned journey, but a miracle that comes by chance.

Hope you guys are doing well in life, no matter what challenges lies ahead. :)

Peace out!

Life and birthdays

2008-04-22T06:16:00.000-07:00

Today is Earth Day. Today is my birthday. I wonder if it is a coincidence for me to share a special day with mother earth? Nothing much happened today, other than having to go through some inter-class debates and econs subject test.

Now, why would I say coincidence between me and mother earth? Well, let me see, we, both mother earth and me, are taken for granted. We give and give, but in return, we got ignorance or worse, getting hurt. But life goes on, and we keep giving, knowing that that's life. Maybe, we are only appreciated when we are gone. ( I am not being emo, but just saying what I am thinking and feeling) I know, along this path of life of mine, I might have made some great friends and some invisible enemies. To my friends, I will always appreciate that you actually accept me for who I am (hopefully) and acknowledge that I, being human, exist. To the people who made me their enemies (Yes, i never make anyone my enemy, but they made me as theirs), my sincere apologies if I have done anything wrong, and please do tell me of my mistakes, for I will never know my wrongdoings and correct them. However, if you despise me because of my personality, well, all I can say is sorry that I don't cut it to be in your crowd, but I am happy and proud to be who I am, so don't think I will ever change just because you don't like me to make you happy.

Being 19 now, I began to reflect on my life. How there are ups and down, how friends come and go, how the society in general are afraid of losing their social circle. For now, I can't say that I am afraid of losing my social circle (that is as if I have one), but what I can say is that I will always cherish of the good times created from it, and learning to let go of them as time fades everything, creating new suprises. The one thing that stands out though, is the fact that, when I die, I will be buried alone. So why worry if your friends are for keeps?

Now, life goes on. As I pass through life exploring feelings and openning my eyes of the world, I learn one valuable lesson that many have forgotten. To learn to appreciate the gift of our own lives.

Again, my sincere thanks to everyone who has been in my life. Here, I leave you guys with some lyrics from Saosin..

YOU ARE NOT ALONE-SAOSIN

It's just like him
To wander off in the evergreen park
Slowly searching for any sign
Of the ones he used to love.
He says he's got nothing left to live for
(He says he's got nothing left...)
And this time I think you'll know.

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell

She's just like him
Spoiled rotten
Confused by the lies she's been fed
And she's searching for no one..
(But herself)
Her eyes turn to green
And she seems to be happy
That she is here
And this time I think you'll know...

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out

(There is more to know)

We're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
You will live to tell..
(So tell me)

You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
You can make it out
(Make it out)
You will live to tell
(Live to tell)
You're not alone
There is more to this, I know
(And I know)
You can make it out
You will live to tell..

You are not alone.
You're not, you're not alone.

Peace out!

The suprises in Life...

2008-04-09T04:26:00.000-07:00

Today, I wanted to donate blood. Today, I was healthy. Yet, my blood just wasn't suitable enough. Apparently, I lack iron. So, lesson learnt is : eat more veggies!!! Hahahaha, well, I can't believe I'm saying this AGAIN, but..there's always next year! :) For now..I have to take care of my health!!!

Rehersals just now..was ok. If it wasn't a competition, I won't be nervous! But for me, it's the experience man! Hahaha, have to keep reminding myself to enjoy the music!!!

Studies are legging..I know...must study..come first. Well, will do my best alright!

Can't say much for now. Life's ok. haha. Take care people!

Peace out!

Blood rushing to the head

2008-04-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

Heya!! I'm all up high man! Woohoo! My band made it to the finals for songfest la! Hahahaha, I am totally shocked! The day before they announced it, I thought we couldn't make it cause most of the bands who made it had some form of message sent to them to inform them that they made it and we don't. So imagine my joy when I heard we made it !!!!! Hahaha. I love our jamming sessions! :)

Anyways, I'm still doing library duties till they actually got a new committee formed. Just so that this CCa will be stated in my GC. But no worries! I'm an ODAC loyalist! Hahahah!

Yes, I am trying very hard to balance between studies and play. But hey, I am not just trying..I am doing it! Haha! But I need to gear up in my studies...all these activites have been making me very buzy with little time for studies!

Ok, in short, life's good so far. Get tired sometimes..but it's all good! TC ppl!

Peace out!

Every disaster is a success

2008-03-26T02:05:00.000-07:00

When was the last time you actually told yourself: " I'm totally fine" , when in fact, you are not? Well, now you might be asking, " What's with the question?". No, my life is not in a mess, and no, I am not in denial just because I said so. To tell you the truth, in fact, my life is going through a phase of change, where I rarely got to meet my parents, have to take up the responsibility of taking charge of my brothers and the house while coping with schoolwork and etc. I find it very weird to adapt to these changes, but hey, change is part and parcel of life after all.

School is my pillar of support. I know, most of you would be saying " What?! Crazy! Most of us can't even wait to leave school!" but yes, I love school. In school, I can become the child in me, going crazy at times and staying quiet randomly. I just love the chaotic environment and at the same time, the serenity it gives me. In school, I can be a loner and a friend at the same time.

So, how's life been treating you? I hope you guys are doing just fine. If you are not, well, tell yourself this: " Life is all about choices. If my choice was wrong, well, its not a mistake but a learning lesson. So smile, for I'm still alive." :)

Peace out!

What happens next

2008-03-20T01:39:00.000-07:00

Life so far has been quite monotonous. It's not exactly a routine, but then again, I could have done better to make my life a more interesting and joyful one. The highlights of the past weeks was :
1) Went jamming 2) Went to Dunman Bazaar 3) Playing the guitar

How monotonous is that?! Maybe Zul was right, I'm a school-lover. Hahaha! Well, I myself admit that school indeed has a place in my heart..I don't really want to get out of the school system anyways, being a grown-up and all. But I know I have to one day. For now, I aim to become the " most interesting nerd of all time", balancing academic studies, driving studies and pure fun. But hey, don't get me wrong, I am not discriminating brilliant minds who spend their lives studying, they, in fact, in the end, have a better paying job that could satisfy their future lives.

So for now, you will see more of studying from me (I think). I don't quite like to study in front of people I know, cause it just distracts me. Ooo ya, and I've quit library to fully-pledge my loyalty to my beloved ODAC!!

Class so far has been more bonded than ever. We are like this one big family and I'm just loving it! And yes, I do miss my friends who are popping in and out of my life now and then.

To all those who are having their exams, good luck.

Here are the lyrics from bowling for soup " High school never ends" for you to ponder on the issues they've brought up. I agree on it! :)

HIGH SCHOOL NEVER ENDS

Four years you think for sure
That’s all you’ve got to endure
All the total dicks
All the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature
Then when you graduate
You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT
This is the same as where I just came from
I thought it was over
Aw that’s just great

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who's kinda cute and who's just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did
How did Mary Kate lose all that weight
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight
And the only thing that matters
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're sixteen or thirty-five

Reese Witherspoon,
She's the prom queen
Bill Gates,
Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback
I’ve seen it all before
I want my money back

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's in the clubs and who's on the drugs,
Who's throwing up before they digest
And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
And you're still listen to the same shit you did back then
High school never ends

High school never ends

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex,
Who's got the money, who gets the honeys,
Who's kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same three friends
And I’m pretty much the same as I was back then
High school never ends

High school never ends

High school never ends

Here we go again

Peace!

THE SILVER LINING

2008-03-10T20:39:00.000-07:00

Let me break it to you guys first..I PASSED!! YES!! I pass the most-critical-and-life-threatening february progress test that would determine if I stay in TPJC or not. The results:

H2 CHEM A
H2 MATHS A
H2 BIO A
H1 ECONS A
H1 GP E

HAHAHAHA! I know, the A grades are sooo lovely..except for the E part..I guess E is for Excellent huh? Hahahahaha! You can imagine the joy in my face when I got the report slip! But hey, the paper was set moderately easy so that everyone could pass..so I can't be complacent right?

My new class is fantastic! Enjoyed every moment with them! We all have a common thing that bonded us together..I shall not say it for it's ' a class thing' ..hehe.

OK! Updates! Odac orientation was fun! Being a group leader, I was able to enjoy BOTH food and games! IMAGINE THAT! OOO YA, PLUS THE 'TORTURING' part too! WOOHOO! Other than the fact my legs are cramping up and the activities..being a blast and all..have gotten me to really appreciate sleep! Hahah!

Music is still a part of me. Yes, I still bring my habit of playing the guitar during breaks. Trying to find a way of finding the time to jam again.

I can't tell you guys much for now, cause my life is still settling in with the new class, accepting the fact that I have to work hard cause I actually CAN stay in school, being a retainee and having rowdy friends and stuff like that. And also finding the time to actualy learn my driving course! Hahaha! I haven't even gone to classes yet la!

Well, you guys take care now.. Yes, my msn is not working..soo yea.

Here are some lyrics from the calling, our lives:

"Our Lives"

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, well can we get it right?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

peace!

GOSH!

2008-02-25T18:20:00.000-08:00

HI GUYS!! Apologies for not updating my blog! Very busy lately. Well, I just finished my February Progress Test ( Well, if u are wondering what that is..it's a test that will determine if I stay in TPJC as a retainee or get kicked out..) and everyone, well all the people I know anyways, are freaking afraid for their GP, including me!! But hey, results are not out yet, so, we'll just have to let the fear lingers! Anyways, GUESS WAT?! I'm in 08S08 for my JAE! Hahaha, and to think that I was in 07S07 last year! What's with the numbers man?! I love it anyways! ( The numbers I mean..)

My job finally ended, and to add on, it ended quite well! This couple with the husband having stroke and was wheelchair-bound, came into my workplace somewhere in late December to help him recover. I gave them some advice, and on my last working day, they actually came back to buy some stuffs, and I saw him walking!! I just couldn't help but feel happy for them! ( Even though I don't know them at all! ) PLUS, I got to know that my dear 'little brother' help out with charity with what he loves doing best ( playing the guitar!) Support Armchair Critic people! I 'taught' him well! Hahahaha!

Life's has it's ups and down..and don't think I'm all high! ( even though it would be great if you are ALWAYS happy! ) For starters, my internet connection screwed up and I cannot log on into my email accounts ( and yes..that includes msn!! ) yet could surf the net. And yes, there are thoses little big problems that will surround us, but really, why should life be called life without hardship right? People break down and cry, and by all means, I SUPPORT CRYING! Evens scientists can't really explain why there are tears everytime one is sad..sad right?! hahahaha, ok, I know, I'm getting crappy again. So, for all my beloved friends, the only way for you to get in touch with me is: meet me face to face, send me a mail thru tpjc.net or friendster.

OO ya, V-day/ Friendship day was great too! I had like the largest amount of chocolates, gifts, cookies, in my going-to-be 19 years of life! I feel soo guilty cause I did not give ANYONE ANYTHING!! I wasn't even planning to come on that day cause I was feeling unwell the night before. But because my class was playing angels and mortals..and my mortal was my Civics Tutor ( yes, I know!!), I couldn't afford to let her down can I? So, to all the peeps who brightened up my day on that day: THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! ( I KNOW WORDS DON'T CUT IT, BUT HEY, IT'S ALL I'VE GOT TO GIVE! !p)

Well, I can't say how much I miss ALL of my friends..dating back from secondary school to now! I wonder how you guys are doing..hmm.. if you guys have any problems, you know I'll be more than willing to lend a listening ear! I can play for you the song ' You'll be safe here ' by rivermaya if you want to ( Hint: YES!! I'VE FINALLY LEARNT IT! )

Ok, den, I'll just end here. Do always look out for the best in yourself and life aite?! ending of with lyrics from Incubus entitled DRIVE..

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before
And it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before
And it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that
When I drive myself my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

Would you choose the water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive

peace!

Updates!!

2007-12-17T03:13:00.000-08:00

Hi guys! OMG, ok, I know, sooo long never update! hahahaha, okok, I'm a bit of a lazy bum..wait..not a bit..A LOT! HAHAHAHAH!Alright then, well, I got up to Mount Kinabalu alright..I was 6km up already! But..1 careless action: I drank somethings I shouldn't have, ended up sick, vomited 2 times..and didn't manage to finish the last 2KM !!!! 2 KM!!! Haiz..from the bunks, I can practically see the peak! Well, expect the unexpected they say. Enjoyed the climb though. At one time, I climbed alone, just me and mother earth..and god..it was the best feeling ever! After the climb, all legs were in pain! While doing some shopping, I couldn't help laughing looking at the way we climbed the staircases of some of the malls..I think Grandmas do better! Hahahaha, we were like 100 years old or something!

Well, now, you might be thinking: I bet she would rather rest for the rest of the december holidays after that trip!

YOU ARE WRONG!( If you thought of that la..) I actually went ahead to join another camp, Adventure Jamboree. It was a leisure camp to me though. Hahaha, the only thing that I actually liked was a sport called water hockey. Man..was that a tough one! I couldn't use the snorkel for heavens sake! In the end, I played only with goggles on! If you are thinking about how it is played, well, you actually play hockey INSIDE the swimming pool! So yea..hahaha. I think I prefer my school's ODAC CAMPS! CRAZY PEOPLE MAKE THE BEST CAMPS! It takes one to know one right?!

For now..I'm chilling by earning some money!! Working la..first time working sia...18years old then get to feel how! Better late then never! I think I'm being taken adventage of in terms of payment...$4 per hour! Weekends and public holidays also the same...but I enjoy it ( sales! ) and get to experience some more leg cramps! Hahahaha!

I urge people who spends their holidays at home..TO GET OUT THERE! There is soo much to see! Go cycling, swimming, play at the beach, JAMMING ( GOD I MISS IT! ), running ...just go crazy la! ( but please have a limit! )

If you feel sad..cherish it! We are the few choosen ones to actually HAVE FEELINGS! CRY IF YOU HAVE TO! DON'T LET ANYONE STOP YOU! CRYING, ( I believe ) IS THE BEST WAY TO LET IT ALL OUT! ( Other than screaming..)

I leave you guys with some wonderful lyrics by John Rzeznik:

I'M STILL HERE

I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
Or a moment that's held in your arms

And what do you think you'd ever say
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want
Me to be

And what
Do you think you'd understand
I'm boy, no, I'm a man
You can't take me
And throw me away

And how
Can you learn what's never shown
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here

[Chorus]
And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong

And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They don't know me
'Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted - I could be
Now you know me
And I'm not afraid

And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here

They can't tell me who to be
'Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin' while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies that I'll never believe

Peace!

Results and Mount Kinabalu

2007-11-21T02:27:00.000-08:00

Heyas!!! Ok, straight to the point, results: Retained. Hahahaha, well, can't changed the past can I? Moving on, I kinda juzt came back from a trip to Mount Kinabalu!!! Woohhoo!!! Well, one word: AWESOME! Sadly, I didn't make it to the top...vomited twice. Hahaha, who asked me to drink milo AND tom yam soup right after the climb?! Pandai! I was 1000m away from the peak k?! Another 'failure'...haiz..it just seem to love me too much! But I had a great time climbing up and down; I especially liked it when I climbed up alone, just me and nature..god,...it's awesome! I would like to thank JX and the guide Wilfred, who have helped me get up to 6km. They hold onto my hand and pulled me up after 3km going up like hell, all the way while I'm having problems with breathing. Soo cute la! Like I'm the small kid being taken care by big brothers! What would have become of me if they were not there to help?! I know, kental, but hey, I'm not fit wat. Hahahaha! Shopping there was crazy..I laughed a lot cause all of us walked like really old people, gripping onto handrails for our lives when we got up or down the stairs!! Hahahaha! This was the only time I remember spending soo much for myself and my family! OOOooo ya, the seafood dinner there was great too!! I managed to play the traditional dance game with the bamboo thing knocking against each other! It was WILD! hahaha, I juz love it!

Now, I'm chilling and doing some stock-taking checks at the school library. My right legs feels soo heavy..I feel like I'm dragging it when I walked! I'm looking forward to the december holidays where I will be participating in the AdJam camp by SMU ODAC and stuffs. OOOOO ya,....and more jamming sessions I hope. It has been really long since I've jam! I miss my sayang!! (my guitar and music ah! nothing else!!)

Well, you guys enjoy life aite?! Live your life with full of soul; for there won't even be life without a soul! HAHAHA,ok I'm crapping!

Peace!

Breath of fresh air..

2007-10-30T23:54:00.000-07:00

I don't know how I'm gonna make it, but I'm determined to do so!!! So if anyone have any ideas or know of any ways ( can be more than one! ) on how to improve your stamina..PLEASE DO TELL ME! I'm desperate to improve my health for the Mount Kinabalu trip which I'm gonna climb in like what..3 weeks time?! The training at Bukit Timah just now really made me realize that I soo have to start exercising and eating PROPERLY!! AARRRGGGHHH!!! It was JUST bukit timah..and I'm half - 'kaput' !

Well, about my studies..hmm..never touched a single academic book since the last 2 weeks. At most, practicing my Oral Presentation..hopefully I can SUCCEED!! Anyways,FYI,THE DAY will be on the 7th of November 2007. Yes, THE DAY.(not OP btw!) Hahaha, THE DAY my fate will show where I stand. Well, got nothing much to say really. Except, when come to think about it, its kinda weird that the peeps I know cried like hell when they got their 'bad results' and I just stared and said 'oh, ok.'when I got the reults that people would say "scare the lights out of me!" Hahaha, damn wierd. But hey, that doesn't say that I don't have feelings k?! haha, just that I accept my fate with grace! !P

I just went for a UNYAS( UN Youth Association of Singapore) seminar last saturday, and it was an eye opener. (Not that my eyes aren't already opened!) They talked about the MILLENIUM DEVELOPMENT GOALS. If you are unaware, there are a total of 8 goals, a form of a blueprint agreed to by all the world’s countries and all the world’s leading development institutions. (You can check them out at http://www.un.org/millenniumgoals/) It started in the year 2000 and aims to achieve the 8 goals by the year 2015..which is not that far away from where we are now.

A brief description of the 8 goals:

1)Eradicate extreme poverty and hunger
2)Achieve universal primary education
3)Promote gender equality and empower women
4)Reduce child mortality
5)Improve maternal health
6)Combat HIV/AIDs, malaria and other diseases
7)Ensure environmental sustainability
8)Develope a global partnership for development

As to what I have been informed, we are nowhere near towards reaching these goals by the year 2015. So, the question would be..are these goals realistic and can be achieved in the first place? My answer would be..YES! You might say that "I'm such an optimistic person..of course I would say as such!" Well, if you are saying this, THANK YOU for saying so about me. To me, I believe that without optimism and a forward-looking spirit, a major part of the world would have long been thrown into chaos. Upon seeing these goals for the first time, it seems too much to ask for and what else to achieve it. But then again, isn't it also too much for the people who are suffering of what these goals aim to eradicate and promote? For every 3 seconds, a child dies from poverty..women in certain parts of the world eat dirt to feed their hunger..it puts me into guilt and utter sadness knowing that such a FACT actually existed while some of us live in total luxury or at least in comfort knowing that we rarely FEEL hunger.

The next question that comes to mind would be: But I'm just a normal person, citizen, an individual. What can I do? I'm just ONE person. Well, ONE person by ONE person can mean millions! WOW! hahaha, what I'm trying to say is, if you start to think ( yes, just think and discuss) of TRYING to make a difference, one by one, it will then be a collective thinking which can eventually become a collective effort! YES, ITS STARTS WITH YOU! (hahaha, ok, I know, I'm sounding like one of those commercial ads or something! But hey, it is true isn't it?) I know that we might seem so powerless when compared to politicians and big companies and etc, which can and may be able to achieve these. But remember, it is because of US that these big associations, politicians and companies come about!

Just think of this when you are feeling totally depressed or utterly sad: THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE LIVING A MUCH HARDER LIFE THAN I AM.

Then, following by this: SO, WHY AM I COMPLAINING AND FEELING LIKE THIS BECAUSE OF SUCH 'SMALL' THINGS WHEN THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE DESPERATELY TRYING TO SURVIVE THE DAY?

Then ask yourself this "IF I CAN'T SURVIVE THIS..THEN WHAT ABOUT THEM?

At least, just pray for them ya?

" Dear God, the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away." - A7X

Peace!

Spices of life..

2007-10-20T06:20:00.000-07:00

Ok..I know..long time since I've been blogging. I'll try to blog more..Anyways, about my promo results? Hahaha, well, not so good. But hey, my life ain't going to go down just because of this! Life would be miserable if I did..not that I'm saying that studies is not important ( it is btw! ), but it would just mean that I have not been living life properly if my life is solely dependent on my academic results. All I know is that I've put in my best efforts and so, now everything is up to God to decide to give me whatever my fate is.

Alright..time to stop sounding soo sad! My life isn't sad! It just shows that I'm not afraid to take risks and learn from it! Yes, people learn from their past mistakes..sometimes..hahaha.

My close friends seems to be having a lot of relationship or academic problems lately. They keep whinning and telling me that it is so complicated, hard, sad. For academic, some even ask me how I can be so strong in facing failures( Appreciate to know that some people thinks I'm strong! ). Well, I guess for me, partly it is because I've been exposed to constant failure in the past. It helps me cope better, learning that what happens in the past could not be altered, I've could have done better and just look forward and do better in the future. Basically, its more about not being ashamed to admit mistakes and move on. For relationships, I really have nothing to say.Hahaha, firstly, I have no experience what-so-ever to give good advice that has been tested on to tell others. Secondly, I think the solution to every relationship problems really lies with the individuals, because practically no one knows better of yourself and your feelings more than you. Yea, sure, I can give some practical advice, the ones that make sense. But really, when does love really makes sense? Hahahaa..and if you are asking me why is it that I have no experience?...well, its because I'd rather have a beautiful and happy friendship rather than a broken-love-that-never-happened relationship. In short, in love matters, I'm not ready and maybe.. just afraid to take the risk..wait till I'm matured enough! hahaha..( maybe when I'm 20 ..!) Meanwhile, I'm just learning from the mistakes that my friends have done in their relationships.

For now, I'm leaving you guys with a question to ponder on. Must life make sense to be perfect? ( *hint: remember, perfect can only exist when there is imperfection! Anw, there is really no wrong and right answer to this..)

Getting to know myself more...

2007-10-07T08:42:00.000-07:00

While I'm checking out people's blogs, I found these in Hafiz's blogs and thought it was cool..so check it out..this is what it says about me:

1st trial ( since they asked me to choose only one of the few type of bands which I liked..and well..I like a few but.. this is the results of one of them )

You Are an Indie Rocker!

You are in it for the love of the music...
And you couldn't care less about being signed by a big label.
You're all about loving and supporting music - not commercial success.
You may not have the fame and glory, but you have complete control of your career.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

yup yup .. very true! But I'm not an Indie Rocker only! Check out my 2nd trial!

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

hahaha..very true! And I've tried this for like four times..and it comes out like the 1st trial most of the time! wwoooaaahhh! Didn't know I'm an Indie! But hey! I love all kinds of music!

And..I found some things which I found out a long time ago! Hahahaha...

You Are Midtown

You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.
Your city girl persona goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.

Are You An Uptown Girl or Downtown Girl?

You Are 81% Real

There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.
You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.
For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.
You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

How Real Are You?

Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP)

Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 5% of all men.
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

I'm not sure if Dunmanites agree to this one though! hahaha!

You Are Adventurous... Sometimes

You like an adrenaline rush as much as the next person. You like your thrills in small doses.
You're generally pretty calm and level headed. But sometimes you have to go wild and have a crazy adventure.

Are You a Thrill Seeker?

But I'm sure SOME PEOPLE I KNOW will soo not agree to this! hahahhaa >>>

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

You Are 40% Slacker

You have a few slacker tendencies, but overall you tend not to slack.
You know how to relax when the time is right, but you aren't lazy!

Are You a Slacker?

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Life so far..

2007-09-22T22:15:00.000-07:00

HI Guys!!! How are you guys doing today?! I haven't been blogging for quite some time now. Hahaha..mugging la! ( Or at least pretending to mug or sleep at the library..HAHAHA!) Well, my life's ok I guess, facing books almost everyday ( right..), missing jamming and jumping around like some kid deprived of childhood. Yea, I know, you will start saying like " But Nad,..U ARE A KID (acting like one!).. GROW UP LA!!" Well, that's one request that I will find quite hard to fulfill. I AM growing up, physically and mentally ( thanks to GP! ). But never in the spirit. I guess that it is what that keeps me going, making me feel alive ( not that I am not!) and realizing my childhood dreams, SAVING THE WORLD! Hahaha, now that I am learning GP, I know that it is practically an impossible dream, with factors like politics, social and economics to consider ( or prevent this from happening..). But, if I can make one society, one city, one area, one group of people or even one person to feel better ( or even obtain peace!), then why not?

I find children are the more facinating age group in a human's life as they are always curious, honest and never shy to do what they wanted to, or just to be themselves, each unique in their own way. Not that we are not unique as we grow up, but we tend to try to please others to be accepted, which may lead to us changing or hiding our unique personality or characteristics.

Alright, time to stop babbling about GP! ( I have to admit, I like the subject!) I just had a 'small and noble' class gathering, courtesy of the one and only Zul! It was ok, with us crapping and Susu having a fear of her life! ( Can't fault her, everyone have their own fears) After that fateful day, I realize I miss a lot of things, my friends, my old music, jamming with different groups ( I am still stuck in the beginner stage..hahaha), play soccer, flawball and basketball with all the guys and girls in class and field ( whichever is appropriate! hahaha), reading comics like slamdunk, eat out and crap ( warning: Reality is weirder than you think) and the blasting noise from our class speakers ( yes, noise which I learn to love so much : metal..haha, who knew?!)

So, as we move on in life, we come to appreciate the little and big things we usually do, either for a purpose or just to fill in the time. I guess life's not mundane at all..that is if you make it colourful. Your life is in your hand..and if you say it's boring..then be careful..you might be the one who is boring..not your life!

REALITY IS weird...

2007-08-09T21:10:00.000-07:00

hahaha, halo!!! I know, very, very long since I update you guys about my life! Well, nothing much to update about really, I'm soo disorganized right now, with my project work, my personel projeck work on service learning, my studies ( oh god, must get back to my studies!! I haven't touch anything and my promos are around the corner..AGRRHH!) Well, basically, everything is simply messy! hahaha, what do you expect, its me!! I'm still living my life as it is, wondering what significant impact I have made everyday, either to myself or to others, which makes it more meaningful. And the results are not that impressive either..well, I have to revise on the way I live my life I guess. Guitar playing is still a part of me of course ( hmm..a beginner as always! ) and I am waiting for the day I can really learn on how to play the drums!! hahaha, so, how's yours ( your life, I mean!)? haha, well, whatever it is, hold on okay?! Hold on together with me!! To help you guys boost your confidence in YOUR life, I have decided to leave the meaningful yet simple lyrics of the band Alter Bridge titled " One Day Remains "...

ONE DAY REMAINS

As your will is bent and broken

And every vision has been cast into the wind

As your courage crashes down before your eyes

Don't lay down and die

'Cause I see in you

More than you'll ever know

And I ask you why

You question the strength inside

And you need to know

How it feels to be alive

When every wound has been re-opened

And in this world of give and take, you must have faith

And the distance to your dreams stretch beyond reach

Don't lay down and die

'Cause I see in you

More than you'll ever know

And I ask you why

You question the strength inside

And you need to know

How it feels to be alive

How it feels

How it feels to be alive?

How it feels

How it feels to be alive?

How it feels

How it feels to be alive?

'Cause I see in you

More than you'll ever know

And I ask you why

You question the strength inside

And you need to know

How it feels to be alive

hmm...

2007-07-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

Well, it's been a long time. Let's just say that my life's in the down mode right now. Hahaha, well, like many said, life has it's ups and downs. I hope my ' up ' will be up soon! My results aren't great at all, and I blame it on myself. I haven't been studying the right way lately. I hope I'll get my ' mojo ' back....

Finally..a breath of fresh air

2007-06-29T09:45:00.000-07:00

Woohhooo! haha..finally, my exams are over! Well, my june holidays was a very fruitful one. I went to the 30 hour world vision famine camp, which was both fun and an eye-opening experience. It really did jolt me back to reality on how so many people in this world are living a tough life and that we should really contribute in helping any way possible. Sometimes, we are so caught up with our busy life and problems, we are unaware at how trivial these problems seem when compared to those who are experiencing poverty. Some of us worry about relationship problems, while many who are sufferring actually worries about more important things..like how to actually stay alive with the load of poverty on them.

I guess all of us have problems. It is just a matter of how 'heavy' it is. Although many of us think that we don't have the power to change the world, but the truth ( to my opinion ) is we do. It is not about something where a drastic change could be seen, but more of the little thoughts and actions that we do in our daily lives which affects others. Just by holding on and being strong in facing life's challenges is considered changing the world, our own personal world the very least.

Sometimes, what I think all of us need is a little encouragement from each other, a pat in the back and telling yourself " It is going to be just fine ." or maybe a walk in the park and enjoy nature, which many of us are taking for granted. If all else fails, just remember the lyrics to Bon Jovi's song, " When you want to give up, and your heart's about to break; remember that you are perfect, God makes no mistakes."

Enjoy life and try to be a helping hand to others while you can. I believe it gives one great satisfaction to help another who is in need.

ODAC LTC...

2007-06-04T03:34:00.000-07:00

Wow! Time sure do pass by fast! Ok..let me tell you all about the camp..

On the average..the camp was fun but a bit military! What do you expect from an LTC Camp?! The first day, we did pioneering..my group built a really stable swing !! Go Odawa!! ( That's my grp name..) We then proceed to Pulau Ubin..Went trekking with my 6++kg bag! Haha..got lost while trying to find the right pathway..whats more..it was at night!!! LOL! The trekking started around 3pm and ended at 1 am!! Haha..all odacians ended up sleeping in the open at the basketball court!!

The next day..we rushed to Changi, where we did our kayaking!! My hand felt like falling! The rest of the day we spent the time by planning our own campfire..yes, we have to plan for our own campfire!! Haha..last minute..but I guess it was ok since all put in their best efforts!

The last day..omg! Hahaha..we did some 'tests'. It involves 'thinking skills' etc.. We then did ' Stamimania'..something that has to do with climbing sturctures that odacians have built! I had a great partner! Hahaha..even some say.." wah, 2 monkeys work as a team..good ah!" Haha..an inside joke. The Camp ended with some 'wet' games..which was really disguisting..haha, but being me, I enjoyed it!

Well, the 'holidays' are here..and I'm off mugging..have to focus right?! hahaha....Enjoy the holidays while you can! And don't forget to be yourself and live life to the fullest!

Peace out!

The Ups and Downs of life..

2007-05-25T04:35:00.000-07:00

Well, how to I start? Today, my emotions went wild! Hahaha..from feeling soo isolated and alone, to hyperactive and happy! I guess who you mixed with can adjust what you feel inside. I regret to say that I am not that well bonded with my class..haha, in fact, I feel as if I'm the anti-social one amongst my classmates! I guess I have to do something about it..But, no worries! I still got some wild bunch of friends who always managed to make my day !( though they might not be the best role models! hehe..maybe role models on how to have fun! Not in the same class though! ) I went to the Navy open house today, and at first, it was ok..me and some of my classmates together with my teacher touring around a ship. Then we slack around, listening to the music blasting out loud..they said the open house was boring..then I spotted my best buddies walking and decided to join them..and man, it wasn't boring at all! Hahaha..we enjoyed playing the games and laughing at some of us who were really acting like kids! ( hey, we are and always will be, young at heart! ) Then, we decided to take the banana boat ride..when my bus was leaving in like 15 minutes time!! Hhaha..I ended up going back to school with their class instead because of this!! But it was worth it!!! Hahaha..we were really acting like kids, the 5 of us..screaming and laughing..comical, especially watching some of them trying to board back the boat! Hahaha..I laughed till my stomach hurts!

Despite not doing so well in my studies ( I'll try my best to do well! I know..focus!! ) I'm really enjoying life..so, is that good or bad? haha..sometimes, I feel that we just have to step back for a moment, free your mind, and enjoy!! I envy the kids who do this ALL the time! hahaha..talking about deprived childhood!

Well, I am now officially the vice-president ( under admin ) for the library society. I can see challenging times ahead of me..but, with a quite hyperactive society..anything can happen! ODAC LTC camp is coming..and I'm not even packed yet!! Hahaha...I know! FOCUS!!!

Ok..I'll stop here..Just some food for thought : Is life all about happiness? Or is there something else to it?

Peace out! Have a great life people!

Kayaking RAWKS!!

2007-05-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

hey all!! first of all, let me say..OMG!! I AM SOO DARK!! hahaha! Odacians went for our 1 star kayaking course on saturday and sunday, and it was great!!! Lucky me, I never get any sunburns!! woohoo! I just love sports! Whats more if it is related to the sea!!

Well, I can't say that I am an expert in kayaking, but hey, at least I know how to kayak right? LTC camp is coming soon, and I can predict that it would be fun!!

Library is electing their new bunch of Ex-co members..haha, well, if its mine, then..YAY! If it is not then, well, it's not my luck. There are always other opportunities.

I know, you guys would be asking " hey, what about your studies then? " Well, so far, it has been bad..haha, but I'll try my best to manage it. Although education is important ( and I won't deny that ) , there are other things in life as well. I just went through a course teaching about how to help your friends who are sufferring from depression. It's sad to see how people are so depressed today, especially among the young. I guess we are too caught up in the rat race that we fail to stop and appreciate life itself , just to make our life better! Ironic isn't it?

Well, talking about life, I just read some articles on stars. ( yes, real stars in the sky ) I am soo captivated by it! Just by knowing that they are present in our skies for millions and billions of years, its like they are the observers of human life, ' staring at us from one generation to another. Witnesses of daily human being lives! Stars rules!!! I wonder... if they can talk, I want to ask them of the secrets of life!!!

haha, well, I'll stop here. Hope that we will one day know what is the real meaning of life..for now, just enjoy what it has for you ok? hahaha..peace out!

WOW! What a week!

2007-04-26T05:21:00.000-07:00

The week was such a rush! haahaha, ok, let me start with LAST week..Odac went to Pulau Ubin! Woohoo! Yup, we went cycling straight after school..( someone got hurt..ouch!) and I think we were the last few visitors that were there on that day..we stayed there till 7pm!! Yea!! My birthday was a breeze..I totally didn't touch on any book ( except a rock guitar book ! )..haha, went to esplanade, marina square and peninsula plaza with Faezah ( Thank you !! ) and then met with Hafizah n cuzzins ( I was the only one who was not related..and I actually made them REALIZE that they were related! Hahaha..). Had a Wonderful time..thanks guys!

THIS WEEK...man, test after test! Library was busy too..with the preparation of library nite tommorrow and to add it up, I have heats for 4 x 100m run!! Argghh! Hope I can do it! hehehe..

Well, I'm learning how to drum as well, since I got a pair of drumsticks as a birthday present from my friends!! Thank You guys!! Like playing the guitar, don't expect me to play that fast..I'm only a beginner..plus I'm learning on my own!! hahaha..

I realize that I've got a lot of passion for a lot of things..especially music. Hope you guys have a great life! Some may not agree with me, but I would like to leave you with this : A LIFE WITHOUT PASSION IS LIKE A BODY WITHOUT A SOUL...( so, make sure you're living and not just breathing!! )

Life so far..

2007-04-13T01:36:00.000-07:00

Hey all!! I've been very busy with school lately. Tons of homework to do, and not forgetting loads of things to study!! Guess it's about time for me to 'see' a glimpse of the real life..haha. ODAC on wednesday was great! Hahaha..although many were complaining about the jogging. ( It was quite long..jog inside..and outside of the school!) Library was chilling! hahaha..what do you expect? But next week is going to be a very hectic day for me!! It's library week! I'm under week 3--> self-confidence!! ( many NEED this!!p)

Sad to say, I've abandoned my guitar throughout my hectic life ( so far..hope not that long!) ...I really need to learn how to manage time!! hahaha...

Well, to end off ( yea..nothing else to say ) , I'll leave you with this:
DO NOT BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP WHEN IN NEED, BUT ALSO,
BE A HELPING HAND TO OTHERS. - Nadiah

The sad truth...

2007-04-04T07:57:00.000-07:00

I'm soo upset. I was so looking forward to donate my blood..when on that very day itself.I was down with flu! So that means: no blood donation! I guess everything happens for a reason..maybe I'm not fit yet to donate blood..by looking at my B.M.I. hhahaa..it's way below acceptable! Workload is getting heavier..parts and parcel of life..haha.

Nothing much to say really. I guess I'll leave you guys with this:

Appreciate every emotion, for each emotion contributes to the meaning of life. -nadiah

Odac Orientation..etc..things happening at sch..

2007-04-02T05:29:00.000-07:00

WOW! It's only the 3rd week of school and I'm exhausted!! Other than tons of homework to do..there are other things that I'm busy with. ODAC camp was a stress reliever!!! Thank god for ODAC..ODAC RULES!! hahaha..It was only a 2 days 1 night camp (30-31 march '07)..but there was a lot of fun-filled experience. I got to know some wild and crazy people like me..hehe..did rock climbing ( and yes..again! ) haha..and even did the flying fox! Wohoo! The night walk was a bore cause I was the last person and my partner was a yr 2 ( since my other partner just left me!! * crying*) hahah..but hey..they did it quite well..seeing and hearing the screams!! The games was ridiculously funy..since it involved candles and cabbages..do I need to explain?? hahha..go and ask the odacians!) The water games was ok..seeing that by the end of the camp when we were posing for a picture..we were all fooled and drenched! Oh yea..I love the t-shirt!! Nice designs!! And what's with my name?? The president really need to improve his memory..seeing that he called all the malay girls whom he can't remember their names as ' nadiah'!!hahaha..

Today is also another suprising day. I was soo looking forward into playing tennis for my S.P.E. ...when the teachers announced that today was the heats for 100m relays!! At first, I reluctantly volunteered..seeing that some of them were sick..and guess what? My team came 1st for the 1st and 2nd heats!! Woohoo!! Talk about lucky! After a tiring start of school in the morning..my day ended with a bang! hahaha..again..it was soo unexpected..my class voted for me as one of the debaters for our class. Man,..I have to start organizing!! Lots of homework to do!! Plus all of this..hahaha..and I'll admit..I kinda enjoy this..(the non-stressing part of course!)

So people..no matter how rough your day went..always remember to do something that will make you happy!!!!

The imaginary...

2007-03-25T05:58:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel stressed, uptight and so upset with yourself? Of course..almost everyone do. the question is why? Well, some of us are stressed with big problems like debts, failing relationships..etc. There are also small matters which we find ourselves upset about..like the time when you travelled all the way for something and found out that it was inaccessible to you. It's hard not to be that way..stressed..etc..especially in this face-paced world. In fact, in an atmosphere where everyone is down and shaking their heads..almost everyone would feel suprised with a person who actually is enjoying life at that very moment in that particular atmosphere.

Call me optimistic if you want, but I feel that that almost everyone does not why they are doing the things that they do..and feel stressed for no particular reason! Come on people! Cheer up! Don't be afraid to scream your lungs out if you are stressed! I do! hahaha...When you work soo hard to obtained something, and then you didn't get it..just remember this very familiar phrase: EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!!!

Being optimistic is not a bad thing..some people find this ridiculous. Their reason would be..these people are escaping from reality. I, however, believe that reality is a part of fantasy..it's what you do and how you believe in the works of life, which makes reality. You make reality..not the other way around. For example..who would have thought that we can actually fly?? In the past..this is considered as a fantasy..but now..it's reality!! We don't really fly..but what we do enable us to fly! This is where our hard work comes in..the creation of aeroplanes. Imagination..energy..reality..it comes together. It is just the matter of what YOU are thinking of...

Exploring myself...who am I really??

2007-03-22T22:57:00.000-07:00

I have to admit..if a person ask me, '"how do you describe yourself? "..I would be speechless. Honestly, I do not know how to describe myself. Maybe my friends and families might be able to, but even then, I would still say that not one person knows me well. At certain times, I might not know myself..so how will others know me better than I do? I realize that, with different people and at different times, I might have different personalities. So, does that mean that for one to know myself better, they have to get to know EVERYONE who knows me? hahaha..I have to say, each person I know have a seen ' a piece' of me, but not the whole ' puzzle'. I guess everyone will have to go through this phase..KNOWING YOURSELF.

Just remember this..." NEVER BE ASHAMED OF WHO YOU ARE. INSTEAD OF COPYING OTHERS..BE YOURSELF..FOR EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT, AND THAT IS WHAT MAKES THE WORLD A UNIQUE PLACE."

School and volunteering....

2007-03-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

Man..school is a rush! For the first day of school..don't expect slacking!! I even got an A-level paper on the first day itself! What can I say?? School is almost as important as life itself..Well, most of us spend like almost half of our lives in school anyways! It's the place where not only will you learn new things, but build your lifelong character as well. My principal said this.." Pay attention..It brings miracles." Hahaha..no doubt I agree on that! So people, listen up..STAY AWAKE!! hahaha..look who's talking! I guess the things that our teachers and parents say about time management does make sense after all!

Volunteer. What does this implies on many? The first thing that many Singaporean students would say is C.I.P.!! Doing all those duties..visiting old folks..etc. Mainly, for some, it's to collect C.I.P. points!! But even for those who don't bother..they would say " The school / My parents force me.." It makes me wonder how many of us are pampered..mind you, many..not all. To me, volunteering is more than just energy ' wasted' and making others happy. It is also a time where I can recollect myself into wondering what life is all about.

As my principal talked about volunteering and how it makes one happy and also believed to make one live longer, ( Wow..I can see you gasp and thinking ' hey, maybe I should volunteer..at least I can live longer!' haha..) I question myself, do we really need to live longer? Think about it. If we lead a meaningful and happy life, lets say about 60 years..when compared to a normal life of 80 years..would you still wish to live longer when you are on your death bed? ( Most of you would go: OMG nadiah! how can you even question us about that?! Everyone wants to live longer! ) To me, if my life is in that manner..than I would say..ok, if God wants me to go, I'm not complaining..he gave me a wonderful life after all! ( As long as my life IS taken away by God naturally on my bed..and not by some freaky accident or even worse..murder! )

OMG...life changes...:/

2007-03-19T02:13:00.000-07:00

My life is about to change..almost in all aspect of my life that is. A new school ( just bought my new school uniform today..soo excited abt it!! ), making new friends ( btw, Jessie from 07s17, sabira..and some others from millenia inst. is in the same class with me!! ) , learning new subjects..but most importantly..learning how to do without an internet at home..for the moment I hope. My computer gave up on me. I guess it's about time too ( A sign from God that I must start studying..). So, if anyone needs anything, just email me I guess. Thank god for the school library!! ( F.Y.I. I joined the sch library too..other than Outdoor Activities..also known as ODAC)

Well, in Life, nothing is really for certain. You might never know when you'll expect the unexpected. To what I think, life is a fragile gift that is always full of suprises. So, I urge you to live life to the fullest. Many might ask, how do I know when is it that I'm living life to the fullest?? No one really is certain on how to answer that question. For me, I'll always ask myself, what did I do or learn today that makes it so special? What is so valuable about today? As the saying goes " Everyday is a special day. " Hahaha..so what did you do today?

HoW ThE DaYs Go By...

2007-03-15T22:02:00.000-07:00

I was soo tired yesterday, that I couldn't care less to post anything except pictures!! Hahaha...yesterday went by pretty fine..despite me and some others joining in late! And I almost died when after 'sms'-ing hafiz and him telling me that he's not joining..and later on saw him right in front of my face like some ghost at outram! My god! I can't imagine my face when I saw him going up the escalator, staring at me! I was thinking..' hey..maybe he's the 1 of the 7 people who look like you '...when he just stopped near the escalator and grinned! Thank god I have no heart problems! hahaha..

We then met mabel, haikal and raihan..and the 5 of us were like some lost tourist trying to find the monorail to sentosa..for about 15mins! haha..never would I thought I would be lost going to sentosa! When we finally arrived..I dived in the waters straight away!! Cannot tahan man! Too tempting! hahaha....After several hours slacking away..we were rushing to catch a movie! Again..I managed to make everyone wait for me, and we ended up going in the cinema when the advertisement was showing. By the way, the movie ' music and lyrics ' is somewhat a romantic comedy. I think I'll rate it 3-and-a -half out of 5 stars..it's really not that boring. And I would like to request hafiz and adilin to please stop saying ..' oh..nadiah feel sinned! '!!! My god..so what if I did feel sinned? hahaha...

Dinner was great! Most of us were eating Japanese food! Not bad! As you can see from the pictures..Ridzwan was really trying sooo hard to control his diet! hahah...rite..come on, let him enjoy his food la people! hahaha...I ended up reaching home at 10pm..all worn out, sunburnt with red eyes!

Well..I don't know when we are gonna have another gathering..but I hear it's pretty soon! haha..seems like we can't live without each other! My god..better start saving..these outings are soo not cheap you know! hahaha....

pictures during dinner after movie and sentosa....

2007-03-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

WiLd!!!

2007-03-14T04:22:00.000-07:00

OMG!!Today..something weird happened! I caught my parents watching MTV!!! hahaha...hmm..maybe they were trying to get in our heads or something! Or maybe they were just watching in for fun..no way..that's more weirder!!

Well..my hard work almost paid off. I ALMOST finished playing enter sandman by metallica!! Repeat..ALMOST! haha..not perfect though. I know, you guys will be saying something like..'omg nadiah..that song was like soo last century in Dunman..a fading fad! Plus, almost everyone who is in a band in Dunman know's how to play that!' Well, I don't care! That song is just soo rocking!

In another note.. I'm glad that I managed to help a friend in need yesterday. She was soo confused about choosing a cca..haha..and from all the people, she called me?! Hahaha..appreciate it though..knowing that someone trusts you. hahaha..maybe it's because me being soo crazy in Dunman..average 3 cca's in a year! Let's see..I was loyal to ELDDS and band for the whole 4 years. In sec 1, there was gardening ( and to add on..it's NOT boring! ). In sec 2, there was pottery..and sec 3, life sciences. Hahaha..don't asked me how I managed to do all that and even passed my O's..that was pure luck! To all those who are having cca trouble, my advice is to take up something that you know you'll love and never get bored of it..despite the people you have to deal with! And make sure that you still have ample time for your studies! ( I don't wanna sound like some nagginh parents, but hey, studies are important! )..oh ya..and not forgetting your friends too!

Great news!! Hahaha..my best friend might just have a chance to get into my school! Yay! It's gonna be wild again once both of us are in the same school again! We might just revive our habits of playing our guitars during breaks and laughing non-stop about silly things that just doesn't make sense! But I don't think we might have a chance to play ' hard gay ' during breaks..now that people like zul and roy are not around!

I'm also looking forward to meet up with my M.I. friends tomorrow! I wonder if they are gonna watch movie or going to sentosa 1st?? hmm...all I know is that it's gonna cost a lot! Man..do I miss you guys! I mean its good enough that 5 of us are in the same school..but it's not the same without the whole class!! There's not much different to those in Dunman ( no offence! But still..miss u guys too! )..cause most of us are like in the same school! hahaha...

Better stop now..before I'll bore you guys again! hahaha..just wanna leave you guys with this:

" Stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone. " - Mr Joseph Peterson

reflections...

2007-03-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

so..what can I say about today??? Nothing happen really, very boring..what do you expect of spending holidays at home??? hahaha..Well, today I wanna discuss about ' maturity ' hahaha..another boring subject!!! I remembered zul telling me that I'm immatured!!! hahaha..maybe I am!! So I asked him, is being mature really good?

Let's see..we categorized maturity to adults..who have more stressed up life than children, they are more likely to commit suicide,they are always complaining about their life being plain boring and problematic ( most of them..not all)..etc...

But he said, adults are more likely to do THE RIGHT THING. They think 1st before they do anything, unlike children who will always get into trouble that way. They make laws to ensure peace.They usually know why things are the way they are. They make the word stability.

Hmm..that is right. But then again..aren't adults just like children too? They had been one. So, what happened?

Remember this? When you were small and you saw that something wasn't right..you told your mom or dad out loud ( and imagine that it was in front of some relatives ) What happened? They shushed you. Why? They said it was very impolite, even though you know what you said was right. So, you somewhat learned that it wasn't right to correct people in front of others, even though what you wanted to say out loud was right. This was so as to not make the person feel embarrassed. You were supposed to say it quietly to them..but which adult would want to listen to the advice of a child? Those who did, good for them! But really..who would listen? So, these children decided to keep the advice to themselves..but hey, the world is changing. People are ENCOURAGED to speak out!

So, what is soo good about being a kid? Well, for starters..they look at all the good things in life! hahaha..really, they see the good in a person when the rest does not. They don't really judge a book by its cover. They do what we call a trial and error.

But we've agreed that maturity is not abut age,,it's about personality..even a kid can be called mature , and vice versa. haha..the conversation is really longer than this..there is a lot of reasons..but yea..don't want to bore you ppl!

ReCaLLiNg MeMoRiEs Of De PaSt..

2007-03-12T07:33:00.001-07:00

Heyas!! Today was an ok day...haha. I was just recalling the past few years of my life..n I'm missing lots of people!! My classmates from dunman (4C)..they are a bunch of weirdos just like me..who are also very emotional ( guess that's how I got it!!) Each have they own unique personalities..and not forgetting nicknames!! There are Susu, goldfish, cat, duck, jamilo, dayak..etc..n not forgetting our very own comic titled " Haji Daddy" with the efforts from Jal!! haha..miss the moments!! For all 4c's out there..just wanna say that I cherish all the great times we had ( esp for nite studies!!) and please forgive me if I had done anything wrong..( hopefully there wasn't!!) Don't forget to keep in touch!! Hope I could organise another class outing soon.

Talking about class outing, My new bunch of great friends whom I met in Millenia Institute ( 07S17) is having a sentosa cum movie outing this thurs..hope I can make it!! Haha..miss them too..how within 10 wks we can bound soo greatly!! U guys rock!!! ( and dun tink I'm gonna skip lessons k!! u guys might do it, but I'm not gonna!! haha..n fyi..that ONE tym when I skipped bio lesson with hidayah was a TOTAL ACCIDENT!!) I'm gonna miss the times we hang out at the stadium playing the guitars and singing..( I really miss the stadium!!) Hope we'll stay in touch!! Sorry if I did anything wrong ya?! ( and 4 the people who did wrong.you're forgiven!! wakakaka!!! juz jk..no wrong done!)

Well..what else can I say?? I've learned a lot from my friends..mainly on maturity ( I know! I know!! Don't remind me!! haha..) and love ( don't ask me about relationships..I'm not ready yet with my maturity level!! Rite zul?? hahaha..). Maybe some other time I will share with you about it...

For now.. I want to leave you people a quote from Oprah Winfrey ( good luck to all of you in life!!):

" You've got to follow your passion. You've got to figure out what is it that you really love --who you really are. And have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever need is the courage to follow your own dreams"